We are in a marathon effort here. Obsessing over daily changes might drive me crazy. For example, Landon allegedly sounds better, but somehow looked a little worse on this mornings’ x-ray. They are going to give the current antibiotic mix another day, then try some additional tests. X-rays are each morning around 5:00 am. His ventilator stats change often. As of now, he is initiating all of his own breaths, but when he does so, the vent helps him get a better breath.
So as I said – obsessing over each day’s changes could make me crazy. Instead, we are enjoying each other’s company. Landon had gotten very puffy earlier in the week so I’ve been helping move his legs, and massage his hands and feet. Today he was more responsive to that. I’ve seen his eyes several times now, including his last care round at 8:00. He looked around quite a bit then, and even squeezed my finger during his respiratory treatment. He is tired, and a bit sedated, but Landon is still in there. And we’re all still “here” with him, no matter where here might be.