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We had our first outpatient visit on the journey to moving the boys’ care to a new hospital. I’ve explained this switch previously, but in summary, it is a little closer to us, but a lot closer to friends and family, both of which can be important in a critical illness. We were happy with the service at the last place, this just makes sense logistically.
Today’s appointment was with Pulmonology. A follow up for Landon after his January in patient stay, and a new patient establishment for Nolan. The discussion went very well. This Doc is all action! She is happy with our respiratory routine for the boys, and suggested a few tweaks, or potential moves we can make in the future if needed. Something Darra and I have been wanting to move toward was also on her to do list…a sleep study. For Landon in particular, we want to understand if he has apnea, or is perhaps such a shallow breather that CPAP would be beneficial at night to help him inflate his lungs better. There’s a chance, but no guarantee it could also help point to what we believe is an elusive cardiac problem. That should be scheduled in May, with our routine follow up in June.
On the way there I had mentioned that I was already tossing around ideas for their Third birthday party. Something themed around music or water, so we can one again focus on things they enjoy.
As the doc was making her way through the physical exam, she started very matter of factly, but very casually asking about our end of life planning, and if we knew what we would want to do in certain circumstances. I told her we have had difficult discussions, and met palliative care in the NICU before the boys were even a month old, and again during PICU stays. So yes. As much as one can “be ready” for such decisions.
I brought that up on the way home and D confirmed this is probably protocol for establishing a new patient with this severity – particularly in pulmonology or cardiac, but I was a little caught off guard. It’s hard to explain, but sometimes I forget. We haven’t had a serious scare in almost a year. We’ve worked very hard a few times to escape hospitalizations, and Landon had a minor one earlier this year. But all in all…we have a lot of good days. I didn’t say “typical”. I didn’t say “easy”. But good. And I mean it. Reality is always there – expectations are known. But they don’t drive who we are or how we live. That is too heavy of a burden to even try to carry. So I leave it behind and only visit it when I must.
As a matter of fact – today was also a good day. We had a smooth trip, safe travels, met a good doctor, had some smiles along the way. On the way home, D confirmed I should get back to planning that 3rd birthday party. And I have.
Can’t wait to hear about the upcoming plans for Birthday #3! Love the pics and updates on 2 of my favorite little guys! Take care of yourself and say hi to Carson!
Love and prayers!!!
Kathy Davis said:
Happy the boys have been doing well. I pray that will continue and know that you will handle it just fine when the time comes.
Jo Lisa said:
Great news! They will be rockin’ party #3 in no time! Thanks for sharing these posts with us and letting all of us follow our little heroes!
We love your pics and updates. You do a wonderful job keeping everyone informed. I really don’t know how you find the time, you you do a great job! Yes, even though we are miles away, we are excited to hear your plans for birthday #3. Carson does a great job caring for his brothers too! Landon and Nolan, keep up the fight and win! You both do a great job!
Landon and Nolan will be celebrating their 3rd birthday soon. Thank you for sharing them with the world. They are just too precious!
Life is meant to be lived – not anticipating (whether with eagerness or dread) what tomorrow may bring. Just keep doing what you are doing – loving ALL your guys in the moment. We don’t know what tomorrow holds – but we know who holds tomorrow and that makes all the difference!